Every night is something I look forward to, particularly the time I have before I go to sleep. Because during that small period of time I pray. I don't kneel down, I don't hold my hands together and I don't revere in the silence. Instead, I just lie down with eyes wide open and say things out loud. I even removed the typical formalities. I literally start of with "Hey, God it's me again" or sometimes even "What's up, God". Because the way I see it God is a friend. And like a friend I talk to him and I find it comforting. Just the thought that I'm talking to someone that will understand me, and someone that will listen. I know he won't respond but I just like the freedom and peace that comes with it. Honestly, it makes me more calm, it releases the burden I feel and because of it I can sleep calmly in the night. I'm not shy to say I shed tears when I pray, I even look forward to it sometimes. Just to get it all out That's how liberating it feels to me.

Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

A friend shared that verse to me when we were talking about prayers. And that is exactly how it is. Something I noticed as well is how I found myself more expressing of how I feel. Now, I don't make it exclusively at night. I'm trying to talk more openly now with others. It's not the same as when I pray but we're getting there. I guess it's just interesting to realize how it opened a path for that. So now every conversation feels like a chance for prayer.